Last night was quite eventful. I am at home, alone, left to deal with all these mixed emotions. Part of me wants to see you, and part of me wants to disappear completely. I have a history of doing the latter. I have a history of finding myself in a lot of trouble.

I guess I saw this all coming. I’m smart enough to know how these things eventually end.

I am just going to try and enjoy myself for the time being and not worry. Then again, its not worrying that’s my problem, its just thinking in general. I have to go to sleep now, it should be an interesting challenge.