It’s like a switch sometimes.
There are days for no reason I’d risk the scratch of electricity
To cut it off.
Skeleton of emotional fuse box.
(Sometimes my knees click when I walk. On and off.)
If New York lost power you would return to before you existed.
(“Oh, let me remember you.”)
I could smile into the evening for once,
I could justify my panic.
Anxieties so faceted, they sparkle.
My must you be so sexy and neurotic.
I was trying to make a point about women.
I meant to discuss the social implications of birthday gifts in modern mating ritual.
The symbolic value of exchange.
The habits of the domestic feline.
Women love questions they can answer by saying ,
“This thing means I am adored.
I am loved this many dollars.
This unique circumstance of timing, neurotransmitters,
Made particularly for me.
Would never fit you,
though you may envy it, if you’d like.
Thank you for asking.”
Mostly I keep you secret.
Woman questions she can answer by saying love.
You are my favorite lie of omission.
Gone until the phone rings.
Baby, it’s hot as hell outside,
Take off your damn clothes.
I don’t really want anything for my birthday.
Perhaps, a pair of wire cutters.