I have been carrying a lot of ghosts around with me today, some friendlier than others. Chris, as every year, is called to mind in January when blood oranges are in season. I have a test day on Wednesday at what I hope will be my new workplace- I made blood orange macarons for the... Continue Reading →
L’espirit de l’escalier
I don’t want to eat,I want to sit around being fragileAnd subsist on sparkling waterI want there to be something left in my dayThat glitters. I want to turn the internet off, open the windows,And listen to yesterday's thunderstorm.I want the rain to wash the sidewalks away with the hours,To return me to the twilight... Continue Reading →
Marking the calendar by the moments spent with you, by the moment I knew.
I am happy, I think, and it comes with a lack of anxiety- a lack of dopamine. Without a reasonable expectation of anticipation. It's so strange. I met a guy. A man. NYE guy, I have been calling him, as we had our first date on New Year's Eve. Very creative, I know.The first date... Continue Reading →
You know that starlight I am always chasing? I can see the stars out here, ever so faintly.
“Dating is a hellhole and it’s insulting that we aren’t in love! Look at this, look at what we have.” I say, reaching my arm out from the balcony, to beckon towards the evening sky and the shadowed outline of rolling hills. It’s 9:30p.m. on a cold January night and the stars are out to... Continue Reading →
A vacation away from the city.
“Let’s have a bit more romance before we go inside, We’ll have one more kiss under the moonlight.” “Okay!” “No, I mean a kiss underwater- we both go down together.”
It’s going to be hard to give you up.
January 2nd and I am back in his arms, At least for a while. “This is the best sex I’ve had all year.” “Same.” I thought I would take a cab home, but the weather was pleasant, the air clean, so I stayed outside for a few minutes, strolling past the cemetery, listening to love... Continue Reading →
The resident demon reconsiders her ways.
You make me want to wait. You make me want to erase every man before you. You make me want to be a good woman. You make me want to be holy.
A Midnight Waltz
Evidently, if you play your cards right, the locals in Austria waltz at midnight. So I spent the first minutes of 2022 gasping from laughter, swept off my feet in the emerald green silk gown I chose to wear. I waltzed my way into midnight. 2021 was a trash fire, and I am standing beside... Continue Reading →